Menopausing
11 March 2026
i stood on the shore and saw the beast felt its breath bathe me in sea smoke as my hair slapped around my face like seaweed every part of me alive— maybe for the first time.
the ache in my hips felt fundamental, the sandbanks on my chest proof of the ebb and flow, my seashell toes and hermit bunions, weathered by tides into wisdom— or just the ellipsis of survival in the dying light…
the sturgeon moon swam through the dark, as i hung the last of my eggs as stars, made a wish for eternity, a pause of salty breath— before i waded into the water, determined to wave, not drown.
Notes
The last line references Stevie Smith’s poem “Not Waving but Drowning” (1957).